Hi you all,
it's the first Journal Entry ever for me.
Oh now I am lying, there goes karma again.

But I was Innocent, I had that enter reflex when I finished the title.

Ah well, my birthday is soon to come, this keyboard totally sucks. Which makes sense in a way, it's a GLR keyboard. Ever seen their brand, logo, whatever? They made a new one. Trust me, I can make that shit in three seconds if I do my best.

Yes I feel like I am wasting time here with silly schoolwork.
And yes it will get me a paper which says I am able to do graphic stuff. But I value skill much more then papers. I don't want stupid words on a paper claiming I am able to do art. I want a paper that proves it, paper on which is art and is able to be judged directly.
That's not how the world works, but it is how it should work.

Every time I visit deviantART or look at what my fellows or other artists have made, I feel bad.
Because they grow in their skill, and I am wasting my time pleasing teachers with dull graphic "art". Really, should it be called art?

I really faced this reality, though I already knew it but never actually acted on it. At English, yes, it is boring. But now it was poetry, so I could at least keep myself from constantly correcting the Engrish teach. (Or whatever language she tries to teach)
It was about that most people do not achieve their goal, that they live like society wants them to live, and now how they want to live. That is: Monday-Friday: Work from 6:00-18:00 then eat, watch television, check mail, sleep. With occasionally some self satisfaction.
Friday evening-Saturday: Be social with friends, watch television, do sports, go sleep, with occasional self satisfaction.
Sunday: Lazy day before the mind killing begins again.

She was like "if you don't get the legal paper of finishing this school, you will regret it." That's how she saw the poems.
I was more like: "I am wasting my time on this damn school and let my real skills slowly die."
And with some night of sleep and brewing of the brain and soul,
this rant came about.

Anyway, I am going to make a promise to you all.
Yes, to whoever takes the time to actually read my rantings.
And to my girl, whether she reads it or not.

I will post one piece of art at least, every week, on deviantart.
No matter what schoolwork wants to go first, no matter what is more important.
No it won't be art I have done earlier, it will be fresh. You will be able to smell the virtual ink and paints.

So you can expect is art from me, at least one piece which is fresh. Maybe some adds of old works, but each week there will be one fresh one.

Only thing I expect from you is to judge it, give constructive critic. Say what you like about it and what you do not like about it. Tell me how it should be done in your opinion.

Be yourself, Be crazy, Be Free, Be Demon.

And may the Fae be with you.